that night..

an hour back ,he had been ditched!!
he stood standing in front of his gate smoking his 4th cigarette in the last 20 minz.it was 10 pm and his frnds were coming to pick him up..a car stopped in front of him 5 mins later.he didn't move an inch..his head was not where his feet were."there will never be another tonight"..was the song being played in the open car on full volume..
beep!!!!beep!!!!
"can't yew hear the horn,yew moron??????hop in!!!!!"
"holy!!"he exclaimed as the almost finished cigarette butt kissed his finger with its flames..
"are yew jammed there??don't stand there cribbing,"Welcome to the club,majnu"....
and he crushed the butt under his feet and sat in the car..the car zoomed..

they stopped at a disco night club..the guys grabbed their respective girlfriend's waists n entered the club..he followed..

it was a dark place..music banging against the walls n young guys n girls dancing as if world was about to end tommorrow morning..his friends soon got lost in the crowd..his mind was getting crowded with some thoughts-of-the-past..he saw a bar and sat on one ov the high chairs n asked for a high-on violet whisky..while sipping he scanned the whole area..freaks were having the time of their lives..on a red sofa in a corner were some guys n girls laughing over..
his eyes stopped on a creature sitting alone on another such red couch on the corner..the lights were blinding but he managed to see ..it was a girl..pretty..if one can say..
a moment later he again looked in tht direction n saw tht she was heading towards him..wearing a black short dress..short hair..tall n sleak..
she came and sat just next to him..
"hey"she said,her tone had the appeal that could turn any guy on..

he ignored!

"are yew deaf or is it just pretendance??"
he was in no mood to even look at her ..he had been ditched 2 hrs back n the only thng he cud thnk of was to kill himself..

she shook his frame!!
"what the bloody fuck!!"
exactly..
look,madam..as yew can very well remark ,i m least interestd in talking to yew..so move ur butt to some other place..
"oh,so thats the way yew talk to women?"
i hardly do..
she came nearer and whispered in his ears in tht sensual tone,"yew seem hurt??and her fingers moved from his neck to his chest where it stopped at the position where we locate the heart.."there".."yew are hurt there,isn't it??"

"how does that matter to yew",he said and he shifted backwards..
he had allowed just one woman to come that near to him n tht woman had already found another man..

"i can reduce your pain,guy..trust meh..just allow meh "she exasperatedly said..

"okay are you some ***** ..coz' a decent lady won't b sitting here trying to seduce a stranger"..he said..

"no..no m not.."
her face went blank..

he tried to get up becoz' he cudn't breathe in thr..it was choking him.he wantd to breathe fresh air..
"where are you going leaving meh here aloof..i need yew tonight" and she started coming near his face..he could feel her beathes all over his face..

he was getting out of control..
trying to move away..and finally managed to..

look yew damned woman.."this is not what yew need..yew need "love"..LOVE....and he slapped her hard..
she slapped him back..
"very well",he said..
and walked towards the exit taking out a cigarette from his pocket ..flamed it n breathed in a long puff...
"yew are a loser",she shouted at him..

"and in more than one way,so r yew"...

itz been long

well people its been long since i last scribbled somethng here..
wasn't getting into the mood.but just nw i really need to write ..

blank face...blank eyes..dead emotions..cold heart..its like tht the chilled zephyr has frozen your whole body n yew can't move to a warmer place n yew can feel the pain of ur soul leaving ur body n u can't even scream..
ur lips hav turned blue..every tear tht last came out of ur eyes is now perfectly settled on ur snow-white cheeks in the form of crystals..ur whole body is numb..

for all ur life ye didn't respect LIFE n now ye want some more moments ov it..
yew want some more laughs to be shared..some more tears of happiness to b cried..some more jokes to b cracked...some more kisses on ur blue lips...some more heated hugs..some more caressing in ur hair...some more moments of togetherness..some more moments of oneness..

yew regret tht some more words wud hav been said..some more thngs wud hav b cleared..some more nights wud hav been spent breathing on each other's arms..


some more life would have been lived...

but there yew r,with a frozen heart..which can't pass on Love..

n yew r just going to ....