smooches.

i've never been kissed and so i really do not know how it feels.
i've heard of some strange,weird and absolutely senseless,"tasteless" tales of their kisses from friends and i always wonder how does it feel.
a lot of things play significant role in making a kiss,perfect..as my expert friends say.The atmosphere around,the time of the day,the dress you're wearing,if your hair is open or bunned or plated..[phew i wonder how that even makes a difference],what you ate last,how active is your tongue,the hormonal balance or imbalance ,etc etc etc.

i was watching this movie some time back and there was this girl having her first kiss though it wasn't first of the guy and they were sitting on the branch of a tree.
*sigh* it was perfect.
it LOOKED perfect atleast.
i some times used to wonder why first kiss is hyped so much.
but now i guess,it deserves all the hype.

i don't know when and with whom i'll have my first kiss but m sure,its gonna be just perfect.
:)

so i was walking on this road which i had no idea will not end soon.i'd been wondering what was wrong with him.he wasn't acting,talking and behaving the way he do usually so i was sure that this aint usual.he was in love again.and this time also,it wasn't me.that night he called me up at 3 o clock in the morning,"vibha,recharge my number will ya.m talking to her n i've gone outta credit.please baby."he knew i had this strange habit of keeping recharge cards with me after i had faced serious trouble when i had myself run out of credit when i was on this school trip,lost in the mid-way and had a narrow escape from..you can say ..not death but bears.
"i'll do it kunu."what?i don't believe i said that.i mean i was giving him a chance to talk to another girl.fuck.i know what all they're gonna talk about.love..kisses..kiss you here,kiss you there.muah muah kiss you everywhere.But,now as i've already said that i'll recharge it,i'll have to do it.


"thanks",he said the next morning i saw him in college.that smile,i could kill myself for that smile that played like mozart's best tune on his lips.
"koi nai."i murmured.
"you're always gonna be my best friends vibhz"
"i know.we're always gonna be ...FRIENDS"
to be contd..

Zipper-Intact.

"So how was the party?",kate asked florence.
florence lighted a cigarette ,and took the smoke in with a deep breathe,"dark".
"dark?did you say dark?",said kate as if she hadn't heard of the word before or maybe she had but never in context to the discription of a party.
"yes,you heard it right:d-a-r-k!",replied florence.
"well ,i guess you are kind of pissed off.is everything alright between you and Alec?what was the surprise he was talking about after the party?",asked an excited Kate.
"trust me,you wouldn't like it ",said florence.
"common tell me,what is it?whats wrong?tell me what all happened.and i want that in detail":kate
"well,he said i was looking beautiful and sexy in this red dress m wearing.we danced.he said he loved me..we were laughing and drinking mocktails.we danced till one o clock.i love him,or should i say,loved him.he kissed me on my back ,and neck,and shoulders.i was letting him do that because i love him,or should i say i loved him.he said i was more beautiful than his ex-girlfriend.":florence.
"what do you mean?where this is heading towards?":kate.
"after the party i asked him about the surprise and he took me to a room on the second floor.it smelled great.
he locked the door and started unzipping my dress,slowly and while he was doing that he said:you love me and i love you .lets take this to another level. i m sure you're gonna love it..
i said:i m not really confortable baby,it aint the right time.i m not ready..i dont want this to end up badly.
he said:common,nothing's gonna go wrong.don't you trust me?
and he started kissing me.
i realized that maybe he didn't love me,he loved my body.
and he wasn't the guy who could ever respect me ,my feelings and my body.he'll always see it,as an object of pleasure.
and i tharsed him on his face.zipped up my dress and came back.
so all in all the night,along wih the party,was dark.

period.

"alright.and that asshole ,where is he right now?"asked kate.
"in the same room,with julianne,his ex-girlfriend."
and she smoked in silence.

Breathe In Me.

She lay beside me,heavy on drugs,soundly asleep.
It was so perfectly silent around that i could hear her breathing without any agitation.
it was still dark and it was very cold,both inside and outside the room.
i was lying very close to her,her scented hair were tantalizing my nostrils.her flawless skin,so perfectly firm and shining and fresh as if that of a baby.
i went ahead and kissed her on her lips.she had the most beautiful lips .i remember how they used to tremble whenever i touched them with my fingers and sometimes with my own lips.
she lay there,peacefully,a smile spread on her lips.i knew she was dreaming about us.me and herself.
she always wanted to have a baby because when she leaves,she wanted me to have a part of her ,always but she couldn't concieve.
her blouse was open and i could see the very part of her.
she was beautiful.
i could see the huge scar she had on her chest..it was of the last operation she had had,two weeks back.she'll have to undergo many more in the future and she wanted to get rid of the pain and so she just wanted to die with out undergoing all that.
the vermillion along the parting-line of hair ,deep red,made her look like a new-bride even after four years of marriage.
but it was all about to end.
not for me,but for the world .